Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Day 22, Wednesday: Rant about something. Get up on your soapbox and tell us how you really feel. (a pet peeve, a current event, a controversial topic, something your husband or roommate or neighbor or boss does that really ticks you off)
Don't I do this too often already? I'm sure I do, and to be utterly honest right now, I don't have anything that's particularly rant-worthy that I haven't already gone on and on about. I'd say the most controversial thing that's driving me nuts would be the number of individuals I watch settle, the number of individuals and people I considered friends, fall into destructive, unhealthy relationships, and stay there simply because it's comfort and security.
It's the hardest thing in the world to genuinely live for yourself, discover yourself, and love yourself. We all defend our comfortable lifestyles, instead of stepping out into the unknown. We do things because they're easy; we keep things because they're comfortable. We often find ourselves defending a life that we're genuinely not happy living, simply because we're too scared to leave it.
I lived a number of years in an unsatisfying life. While I'm not a doctor, a prophet, or anyone of importance, I do find it important to surround myself with positive people, positive attitudes, and an overall happiness and well-being. It's important to me that I see my loved ones in mutually satisfying relationships, that start with the relationship that they have with themselves.
So here's some things that I have to make a conscious effort to do, or else I'll get wrapped up in the rest of the chaos (In today's world, this is very easy to do, so let go a little.)
Spend some time with yourself.
Yes, this means being entirely alone; no cell phone, no computer, no people surrounding you that you have to acknowledge the presence of. The more time you spend alone, the more you discover, the more you're able to embrace your spirit, the more time you devote to loving yourself, you'll soon reap the rewards by feeling more fulfilled.
Start with something small always. Any time you're making a change, any time you're turning over a new leaf, proceed with baby steps. Even simplifying your life can start with the small step of sitting outside for 5 minutes, taking a few deep breaths, and enjoying the beauty of nature. Allow yourself to become wrapped up in this small moment. As you start to appreciate smaller things, start moving to bigger steps like eliminating junk, clutter, and negative people
Allow the time you spend alone to be peaceful, mindful, and allow yourself to dream. What do you want in your future? Write your dreams down, let them go wherever they take you.
A lot of people say things. Saying things is easy. But are you living them? Are you a living example of the things you say? Remember, start small...but live and follow through with your dreams and goals.
Don't Be Replaceable
Be Unique. Be a person of VALUE. Stand out among others simply by being you.
I love you all <3
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Monday, May 20, 2013
Day 20, Monday: Get real. Share something you're struggling with right now.
Whew! What am I struggling with?
If I'm getting real, I'm having a really difficult time connecting with people my age. Like I've said many times, I just don't fit in with them; they don't understand me, and I really don't think I understand them either. This isn't to say they aren't great people, I'm just unable to make any real connections with people who don't value life the way I do.
Everyone says they hate drama, but they live in it. I can't seem to find people who are living their lives for themselves, and not for someone else. I can't seem to find any genuine friendships; someone who's really got my back and I've got theirs. A real person, one that's able to connect with me, hold an intellectual conversation about life and the world around us.
I consistently struggle with letting go of the negative people in my life, those weighing me down, like the quote above. I feed off their negative attitudes, thinking someday, they'll come along...they'll realize I care.
I just don't fit in, and this is why I write...it's always been and probably always will be...my struggle.